That’s not me. That’s not my story. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that.
The internet is a great resource but it can also send you to a deep, dark place. It’s hard not to compare yourself to others in some situations. When I hear about someone who has been through any of this, especially when the person was/is also stage 3, triple negative, I almost immediately compare myself to them. How are they doing? Will I have the same outcome? The good and the bad.
Then I remind myself that since the beginning, when I was first diagnosed, I told myself “I am not my mother”.
Now don’t get me wrong, she was an amazing, strong, loving, overall fantastic woman. She was my best friend and I miss her everyday. But her diagnosis is not mine. Her outcome is not mine.
Each day, I’m writing my own page and working towards a happy ending.
No matter your current situation, let’s all try and remember that we are writing our own stories. We may not be able to choose everything that happens to us but we can choose how we respond.
Today’s page in my Book O Life- sixth chemo treatment complete. My platelets went back up but my white blood cells are down again. I was still able to get treatment though. Yeah! Feeling great, half way done with this Taxol/Carboplatin regiment! I have a consult with Radiation Oncology later today to plan out what’s coming in the new year.
I have also been getting way comfortable with my new look. I am digging the new ‘do I’m rocking. Being bald is chilly at times but so convenient! And I am getting much better with my makeup stuff. My eyebrows and eyelashes are thinning but luckily there is still enough to work with. Thank goodness for mascara!